Sonntag, 27. Dezember 2009

Sunday blues

Sunday blues
Blue sky, clouds, rain,

Samstag, 26. Dezember 2009

Freitag, 25. Dezember 2009

Christmas this year

Here in Germany the big day of the celebration is the 24th. We wanted to visit my inlaws this year. Everything was packed, my hubby just went to wash his car before we started.

Well, I had to stay behind. I got a big dose of feeling unwell just when he left. All the 24th and the morning hours of the 25th I spend between bed and toilet. I am grateful that I was able to stay behind.

Now I feel allready a bit better.
And a hot black tea is waiting for me...

Sonntag, 20. Dezember 2009


Cold white Sunday.
That's it.

Samstag, 19. Dezember 2009

Donnerstag, 17. Dezember 2009


Today - will be remembered as the day no train reached or left Hannover main station in the morning. You are right - no train. With luck I got on a bus to the next train station, got my train and reached work more than one hour late.

But today will also be remembered as the day it was cold - below zero.
And it was white outside. I took this pic out of the train when it waited to let other trains pass by.

Samstag, 12. Dezember 2009

Montag, 7. Dezember 2009

Holy shit!

Prague 2009

Water can be nice and fun - when it is where it belongs.

I had a day off work and wanted to clean the last bit of my flat.

I sold it and while moving out I damaged a glass of sweet fruits
so in the storage area it was still a bit sticky.
The plan was to clean it for the second and third time in the
hope that the sugar gets away....

What I did not believe was that the whole bathroom was under water.
So it was not just some small cleaning but a big cleaning.

Sonntag, 6. Dezember 2009

Feeling old ...

Prague 2009

Samstag, 5. Dezember 2009

Prague - how I saw it

Small sparkles of a beautiful city:

A view from the hill:

And a lot more pics still waiting...

Mittwoch, 2. Dezember 2009

In the streets behind the corner...

... you can find the real soul of Prague.
Go away and leave the tourists places behind.
Go and enjoy your find in the little sidestreets.
Or come back to the great scenery to odd hours.
It has another feeling when it is for you.
You alone. And not having to share it with hundreds of others.
Enjoy it. It waits for you.

Prag, Klappe die zweite

Du goldene Stadt.
Du Stadt der Touristenströme.
Du Stadt der unzähligen Souvenierläden.
Du Stadt der herrlichen Brücken.
Du Stadt der wunderschönen Häuser.
Du Stadt des herrlichen Bieres.
Wer kann Dich nicht lieben?
Wenn man Dein wahres Ich in den Hinterhöfen
und Nebenstraßen entdeckt?

Montag, 30. November 2009


Prag, die goldene Stadt. Und ich Döspaddel vergesse mein Kamerakabel. Also bleiben die Bilder in meiner Kamera und landen erstmal nicht hier.

Die Anreise mit der Bahn verlief ruhig und gemächlich. Die Grenze nahm man kaum wahr. Es gibt keine Grenzkontrollen mehr. Aber man kann die Grenze "riechen". In Tschechien wird mehr mit Holz bzw. Gaseinzelöfen als in Deutschland geheizt - und das merkt man am Geruch.

Gestern traf sich unsre Reisegruppe dann zum ersten mal im Hotel. Wir hatten uns für eine "geführte" Reise entschieden, da wir des tschechischen nicht mächtig sind. Und es wurde abends bei brennenden Becherovka (Kräuterschnaps) gleich lustig.

Die Mischung macht's halt. Gutes Essen (mittags das vegetarische Restaurant), gute Unterhaltung (dafür sorgt die Gruppe) und gute Aussichten (dafür sorgt Prag)..., was will man/frau mehr?

Freitag, 27. November 2009

Soon we go on holiday

Happy, nervous, free...

Dienstag, 24. November 2009


Was ist Glück?
Wenn ich die Million im Lotto gewinne?
Wenn ich meinen Prinzen finde?
Oder einfach der Moment ohne Sorgen?

Montag, 23. November 2009

At the city office

Today I had to go and get myself new documents at the city office coz I will change my name with the marriage. And although it has not happened yet I had to write for the first time my soon to be new name. I decided not to tell anybody about the upcoming marriage.

How would you like to marry? Or how did you marry?

I want to marry with just my soon to be husband around. Just us two.

Last time I married I had to invite my whole family and neighbours and so on.
We had a big wedding with city hall and church and white dress and big party.

Sonntag, 22. November 2009


We decided against buying the house we both liked.
We went out together to celebrate the 78th birthday.
We decided to marry this year.

Montag, 16. November 2009

Eating bagels... hungry that I have the delicious cream all over my face.
They were really yummi.

And they are so easy to store. Buy fresh bagels, put them in the freezer and when you want to eat them: give them a short time in the microwave and you have the most delicious bagels.

I tried it when our local bagel shop had an announcement for "buy ten get twelve" and now I often buy a gib pac to have enough in the freezer.

Sonntag, 15. November 2009

Having fun...

... or better just joking around.
I did not do much else than watching tv yesterday.
Something I very seldom do.

And today I slept long. Took a lovely walk to the bakery and
had fresh rolls for breakfast.

I made myself one of my favorite dishes for lunch.
And made enough to have some leftovers for dinner.

When reading the newspaper today I saw I could go to two different
art sales in town.

Last year I visited both. This year I decided to visit the one I liked best last year.
It is a little sale near the place I live. Artists from the area sell there things.
They had bags, baskets, knitted things, silver jewels...

I bought a big basket as a birthday present for my boyfriend. I really had to scratch my coins to get the payment together. So learn, never leave the house without a lot of money when going to artsales.

Samstag, 14. November 2009


Today I have some time to be in this space again.
I have had long days at work and I will sell my flat soon and ....

Today I went to two farmer markets with my bike.
It was a great time - fantastic weather and good food.

I am alone today.
A lot of time for fun.

Donnerstag, 12. November 2009

Sonntag, 8. November 2009


Today is a day of hope...


I can tell you that I hope a lot today.

A good friend visited me today and I hope her boyfriend will get better soon.

I have hope that my boyfriend will marry me.

And we hope to buy a home together.

Where do you hope for?


Samstag, 7. November 2009

Dienstag, 3. November 2009

Tired, sleepy...

Work, gym, phoned with a friend, two Adventkalender filled with stuff.
That was my day today.
Now I am sleepy, tired,...

Montag, 2. November 2009

Dark days with rain...

... the best time for tea and muffins.

And today I was shopping after work for something we call "Adventskalender".
I made several the last years and all I have to do this year is to buy the filling.
Mostly sweets but sometimes some other treats.

After my mother told me that it is so easy for me to make a "Adventskalender" for her I took it really easy this year and bought a finished one for her - allready filled with sweets.

I will not reach all my goals this year. I am trying to reach most.
And I am trying to live my life more easy - I do not have to be the perfect daughter.
I could try and try - that goal is out of reach - as long as my parents are my parents...
That is what I have to remind me each time when I want to be loved by my parents.
Equal what I do for them - it will never be enough - so why trying so hard?

Sonntag, 1. November 2009

Vom Tod

Dann sprach Almitra: Wir möchten nun nach dem Tod fragen.

Und er sagte:

Ihr möchtet das Geheimnis des Todes kennenlernen.

Aber wie werdet ihr es finden, wenn ihr es nicht im Herzen des Lebens sucht?

Die Eule, deren Nachtaugen am Tag blind sind, kann das Mysterium des Lichtes nicht entschleiern. Wenn ihr wirklich den Geist des Todes schauen wollt, öffnet eure Herzen weit dem Körper des Lebens. Denn Leben und Tod sind eins, so wie der Fluss und das Meer eins sind. In der Tiefe eurer Hoffnungen und Wünsche liegt euer stilles Wissen um das Jenseits; Und wie Samen, der unter dem Schnee träumt, träumt euer Herz vom Frühling. Traut den Träumen, denn in ihnen ist das Tor zur Ewigkeit verborgen. Eure Angst vor dem Tod ist nichts als das Zittern des Hirten, wenn er vor dem König steht, der ihm zur Ehre die Hand auflegen wird. Freut sich der Hirte unter seinem Zittern nicht, dass er das Zeichen des Königs tragen wird? Doch gewahrt er sein Zittern nicht viel mehr? Denn was heißt sterben anderes, als nackt im Wind zu stehen und in der Sonne zu schmelzen? Und was heißt es nicht mehr zu atmen anderes, als den Atem von seinen rastlosen Gezeiten zu befreien, damit er emporsteigt und sich entfaltet und ungehindert Gott suchen kann?

Nur wenn ihr vom Fluss der Stille trinkt, werdet ihr wirklich singen. Und wenn ihr den Gipfel des Berges erreicht habt, dann werdet ihr anfangen zu steigen. Und wenn die Erde eure Glieder fordert, dann werdet ihr wahrhaft tanzen.

Khalil Gibran, Der Prophet

Lilac potatoe soup with salmon


Samstag, 31. Oktober 2009

Dienstag, 27. Oktober 2009

Samstag, 24. Oktober 2009


Short shots of happieness...

Nothing could have gotten me out of my state of despair these last days.
Well, nothing is the wrong word, coz there was something.
It was something small, something i could not control, something money could not buy...
There were short shots of happieness: When I saw black birds against the sky, the red sun behind clouds, the colourful autumn leaves; when a fresh breeze touched my face like a friendly hand...

These last days...

The last days I did not like myself and my life and life in general.

I know I should be happy. I have a job. I have a flat. I have a boy-friend.

Well, sometimes I think I could have everything one can possible have but I would still feel the same.

Sonntag, 18. Oktober 2009

Early nights

These times night comes early.
I love this view from my window.
Is'nt it beautiful?

Samstag, 17. Oktober 2009

The cucumber

What can a cucumber tell you?

Well, I think it can explain a lot when you find a cucumber in your backpack one week after buying. Yes, the backpack I carry each day with me. Yes, I carried a salad cucumber one (!) whole week with me - each day.

Sonntag, 11. Oktober 2009

Samstag, 10. Oktober 2009

Just in love with autumn

Hey, it is autumn.
Let us celebrate the cold rainy weather.

It gives us a reason to stay indoors.
A reason to cook and bake
to light candles and drink strong black tea.

It is now the time to read books.
It is now very cozy at home.

Will you join me for a piece of fresh made cake
and a cup of strong black tea?
There is nothing better than enjoy it together.

Mittwoch, 7. Oktober 2009

Loosing weight

I said I wanted to loose weight. Well, it happens faster than I wanted.
I got ill. All I could eat were crackers and drinking is reduced to tea....

Sonntag, 4. Oktober 2009

Samstag, 3. Oktober 2009


Today we ate the homemade noodles.
They were delicious.

And I washed some needle work I had made with a new yarn.
Well, it did not get out as well as I hoped.
They said that reds and dark colours may fade out.
Well, I got it.

Freitag, 2. Oktober 2009


I do not know what you like to eat, but here noodles are alltimes a great dinner.
We usual have several different sorts at home and nearly each Saturday it is our meal by choice.

Today I tried something special. I have a new cooking book. It is about Italian cuisine. And it had a recipe for noodles. So I tried noddle dough.
It was easy done. I formed the noodles and put them in a bowl for drying.

Well, I guess the bowl was not the best idea.
Only some dried and the rest formed a big sort of a round stucture.
So I had to form the big mass again and tis time i gave each noodle a place for its own.
Tomorrow is Saturday. Our meal of choice? Homemade noodles.

Donnerstag, 1. Oktober 2009

Making cookies

I never know how one can have enough cookies.
Here selfmade cookies seem to be inhaled.
I made a quick recipe for oatmeal cookies.
It is really fast, you do not need much for it and they are delicious.
Well, I have to say the last batch was eaten in a swoop.
To not coming in conflict with my diet - my sister told me one cookie one point of 18 I am allowed per day - I made big cookies (8 cookies out of a recipe for 50).
So I have no problem to get them fit into my diet.
Now I have to run - they smell delicious...


Sometimes my ramblings seem to make no sense at all.
I am on holiday - let's enjoy it....

Well, a crazy thing but it is very hard for me to enjoy something.
It is hard to feel proud of something.
It is hard for me to tell my wishes.

I can only explain it with the old story of how I was brought up.

I think it is a story I share with a lot of people.
My parents are/were loving people, but they had their difficulties.
One difficulty they had was that they wanted me to fulfill their standard of dreams.
I was the one they wanted to be the best, most loveable, beloved daughter.
They could not tolerate when I had an other opinion.
I can still recall the time my mother told me to stop laughing in public coz an aunt had told her my laughing was not nice (comparing my laughter with the bellow of goats). Or the time I had to stop playing cards with my family coz it bothered my mother that i won very often (just luck, no cheating).

It is very hard to believe that I am loveable. That I do not have to be the best alltimes. That I need not to work harder. That I am o.k. how I am.

Mittwoch, 30. September 2009

Today - city walk

Today I went in the city.
Sushi and shopping waiting for me.
I bought the new book by Jorge Bucay.
I liked the two books I allready read written by him.
So now a new book is started.
The last weeks I have had nearly a marathon in reading.
I read more books than ever.
Not all were as great as i thought
- some were replaced onto the bookshelf after turning some pages.
Other were so great I could not stop reading.

How do you decide which book to buy?
I usual take a stroll through our local bookstore and look around on the display.
Or I look on the bookshelfes of other blogger for getting ideas...