The last years I have tried to become a grown up version of myself. I went to therapy and read a lot of self-help books.
Why did I need all this?
I can only guess, but I think it has something to do with the genes I inherited and with my upbringing. I can not change the genes I inherited so all I can change is the behaviour and the believings I learned during my childhood.
I believe my parents wanted the best for me but they were not able to do the best. Nothing spectacular but I was not able to live my life in a good way. And I still struggle a lot.
Therapy is a great way to learn more about yourself. It may be hard to find a good therapist but it is worth the search.
I wanted to show a pic of grey and white. My first paperwhite narcissus is in bloom. Well, it is more a pic in very dark and not so dark grey.
The weather is very callinging with wind, rain and dark clouds. I decided to take this pic with whatever natural light i could get. I wanted to lighten the colour but was not sucessful in doing so. So all I have today is grey...
Same with myself, I want o be the perfect girl, wife...