Mittwoch, 17. Dezember 2014


Just not in the mood for blogging -sorry.

Samstag, 29. November 2014


Today is just one of these grey colourless autumn days.

I finally accepted that I have to rewrite part of my exams (Well, I still believe I was right and the correctors wrong, pahhh).

Drinking a lot of hot tea.  I allready visited the christmas market in a little town yesterday. Starting to feel a bit like this season.

I was asked to sew a pair of bird trousers for the woman I buy my salad for lunch.
Good luck had it I still own a bit of the bird fabric. Hope to finish it as a Christmas present.

Montag, 24. November 2014

Please give me a sparring partner...

... I need someone to beat.

Just got the news it will still take time until I get the results from my protest about the exams. I protested against my results in March and they did not reply. Maybe I will need to go to court. I am allready waiting five months.

Samstag, 22. November 2014

my new pair of trousers

Yesterday I wore my new selfmade pair of trousers to work. Everything was fine, well, untill I set down on my chair. I got the sound chhhrrrrrpppp. Yes, the whole backseam was open after this noise.

Thank God I had a pair of trousers in my desk so I could change in a good one.

Mittwoch, 19. November 2014

Hey, can anyone explain...

... why so much people around me believe it is their right to tell me what they want to do with my time.

Like, you invited us for dinner, but we will come around lunchtime and stay until dinner. You can prepare lunch and dinner?

Saying no sometimes seems stupid, too, so but I do not feel well with these situations.

Do not get me wrong, I love guests when we have a nice time together. I just want to get a chance to decide if I have the time or not.

Do you know this sort of dilemma, too?

Freitag, 14. November 2014

Seems I get allready a bit in wintersleep modus ...

... well, it got cold outside. Not with snow, but cold enough to get my plants in.

I started to knit again and finished some pieces. Never thought I would learn to handknit. My first tries 30 years ago were really ugly.

Some fabrics were sewn into bags or pairs of trousers.

And we had a death and burial of a dear relative these days.

Freitag, 24. Oktober 2014


The last days I had chickensoup. Not much, but a little bit each dinner.
Mostly I slept and cought. Today I felt good enough to buy some fresh chicken and make myself some soup.


Mittwoch, 22. Oktober 2014

Just got fast enough in the bathroom...

... to vomit and I am not pregnant - just feeling awfull with headache, cold, sore throat.

Dienstag, 21. Oktober 2014

do not know if virus or bacteria

just know I do not feel well.

Sonntag, 19. Oktober 2014

Thunder and hard rain...

closed this beautiful sunny weekend.
It still felt like summer in October.

Samstag, 18. Oktober 2014

Working again...

... but not much to show here.

Sonntag, 12. Oktober 2014

New art in Budapest

pic 1 and 3 street art, pic 2 selfportrait in the entrance of Atelier Pro Arts (I am the green reflection)

The old Budapest

Samstag, 11. Oktober 2014


Budapest 2014

My time in Budapest was a mixed one. I arrived friday night and visited this nice place near the Oktogon. I had a duckbreast salad and a dreher bak at cafe vian. The meal was great and the beer, too.
The weather and my condition not so much.

On Sunday my course started and I met with the other members of my group. I knew allready half of the group from travels I made before. We had such a crowded programm that one day we had no time for lunch.

I liked our meeting with members of the parliament coz there we got some information about the political situation.

Donnerstag, 2. Oktober 2014

Going to Budapest today

I am flying to Budapest today.
Never been there before I am curious.

Dienstag, 30. September 2014


Ten years I searched for a permanent job. I worked for short periods not knowing where I will work in one years time for ten years. I wanted something I like and staying in the same town with my husband.

Since today this time is over - I have a permanent job nearby.

I can stay at the job I have for as long as I like, yeah!

Sonntag, 14. September 2014


Autumn is near. The first leaves are travelling through the air. Purple autumn flowers are blooming in my frontyard.

Mittwoch, 10. September 2014

On exams

I finished my last part of the exams with 90 from 100 points.
Looking how little time I had for learning it is a fine score.

Sonntag, 7. September 2014

These days

These days have been busy.

Work and life and an exam coming tomorrow.

When everything goes well I perhaps finish my course tomorrow.

One and a half year studies leading to this point.

I do not know if I know allready enough.

For sure I will miss my classmates.

Sonntag, 24. August 2014


... life is fine, I take pics, I make things, but I do not get into this space as often as I used to come.

I made my everyday trousers for summer myself this year - I loved the colourful fabrics from vlisco and an easy japanese pattern.

I bought a sweater at desigual with something like sashiko on it.
Now I have a reason to cut into another vlisco print that will go perfect with the sweater.

Donnerstag, 21. August 2014


The leaves are not colourful yet, but the weather gets cooler. The blueberries are ripe, blue and sweet.
The autumn flowers start to bloom. Sweater weather.

Sonntag, 10. August 2014

Bugs and butterflies

I visited a butterfly farm today.
They had some bugs and spiders, too.
Do you love beautiful pics of bugs?
I love this book (second pic) with beautiful painted bugs.
And there are artists out there who try to make them out of fabric, leather, yarn.
I could not resist this book (last pic).

Samstag, 2. August 2014

Jersey 2014

One beautiful week at the seaside in 2014.

Donnerstag, 24. Juli 2014


I wanted to do so much before my holidays - and finished just a little bit like alltimes. ;-)

How are you?

Samstag, 19. Juli 2014

On bags

When I need a new leather bag I prefer to buy locally. Yes, I can:
Near Hannover Bree has its headquarter and I love their style.

When I need a fabric bag for grocery I use the Ratzfatztasche pattern to make my own.
I just love how easy they are.

When I want a more fashionable bag I make the sling bag pattern by Amy Butler.
I love to use heavy Echino fabric for this one so I do not need to add an extra layer of fabric like the pattern requests.

For my bags I like to use corduroy for the handles - I made the first ones with fabric, but corduroy has a much better feeling when you use it.

What are you doing these days?

I just finished a Sling bag last week.

Donnerstag, 17. Juli 2014

How to start - part II

I just found a good resource here: Tilly and the buttons. You will find a guide for beginners with no background in sewing to get you through the first steps of sewing.

Oh, do not forget to read the directions of the pattern before you start. American pattern mostly include the sewing allowance, European and Japanese pattern do not include it and you have to add it yourself.

I use sewing chalk or old soap bars to mark the fabric.

Dienstag, 15. Juli 2014

On starting to sew

I am not an expert on teaching what you need to start sewing. So I will just share some helpful links here:

For fabric and or supplies:


vlisco - beautiful cotton fabric with an african feeling. They produce in Holland for the african market and sell in 6 yards coupons, so you can make two pairs of trousers out of one coupon. My fav are their wax-prints.

shaukat - sells beautiful Liberty Tana lawn for a reasonable price. I use it for blouses or summer trousers/skirts. It is very fine and a bit tricky to sew, but great for hot temperatures.

stragier - sells beautiful Liberty Tana lawn for a reasonable price. I use it for blouses or summer trousers/skirts. It is very fine and a bit tricky to sew, but great for hot temperatures. (a french website)

michas Stoffecke - is a great resource for garment fabric - mostly for children you will find beautiful fabrics (a german website)

charlottas . everything you need from yarn to fabric and books. Mostly for quilters. (a german website)


hawthorne threads - fast shipping - good prices and a gread collection of quilting fabrics - seems they started to carry some voile, too

purl soho - why can I not live near this shop? They carry all you want for your sewing. 

For books / pattern:

I am in love with Japanese sewing pattern. They are great for beginners.

You can buy them directly in Japan or through etsy or ebay. I used this shop to get my most loved book. The pattern are easy and you just need basic skills. I made trousers and blouses from this book I wear nearly daily. All I had to do was adjust the length a bit.

An easy free pattern to start with is this. It is for a bag with lining that is very easy and fast sewn.
And it is a very forgiving pattern, so you have a good experience when you start. Just straight sewing and you are done.

Sonntag, 13. Juli 2014

Be brave

Do each day something that scares you!

No big scares required - just the ordinary little things that take you a bit out of your comfort zone.

I am not good at flying. It scares me to be in little spaces when I can not get out asap.
Well, today I had two chances to enjoy flying.

Tomorrow I will do another thing that is our of my comfort zone.

Are you trying to be brave, too?


Today I had a chance to get some pics from the air of Celle.

Mittwoch, 9. Juli 2014


Today i went to catch the usual train at 7:00. Everything seemed o.k.. The train was announced on the board. A train was on the tracks. Well, people were not boarding and when I asked why i was told it was going to Berlin - not Hamburg. After some time the waggons going to Berlin were on their way and my waggons to Hamburg were coming on the tracks.

Happy me.

Well, until I went into one. Seems they were used after the last Soccer Play. A lot of rubbish and a heartbreaking smell.

30 minutes late I hope to reach me destination
soon. And i will be happy to leave this Train that reminds me more of a trashed Public toilet than a train.

Samstag, 5. Juli 2014


After some weeks without a "real" weekend I am happy to have one now.

Yesterday we were invited to watch fireworks over town.
It was a good show with great salads and fingerfood and sparkling wine.

Today I will start to sew a new pair of trousers.

Dienstag, 1. Juli 2014


Just came back from Berlin.

Tests are over for this time.

First results will be mailed in four weeks time.

I can not say if I passed or not before I got the results.

In this things when I feel good I did not pass and vice versa.

Samstag, 28. Juni 2014

I need help

Anybody out there who can help me to find an interesting master course that is part-time and not to expensive?

Germany or elsewhere.

I have a bachelor in public administration, but I would love to do a master in mindfullness, art or general studies.

Any guesses?


I know, I should be learning nonstop now. Well, that will not be.
I am happy that I did a lot last weekend and I hope that it is enough what I did.

I could not get myself to my books as much as I would have liked.
I am grown up and should take it more serious.

Well, I am how I am.

Today I saw for the first time teeny teeny shrimps. About 3 mm long and pale.
Very very little guys.

My fishes are on vacation outside so the shrimps are coming out of their caves more often.
One fish did not like it outside and decided to do suicide by jumping out of the pond.
Now four fishes are left.

Montag, 23. Juni 2014

These days

These days I am happy to have some time outside. To have others to learn together.

This pic is from last weekend ca. 3 hours south of Hannover.

Freitag, 20. Juni 2014


Today I will take my first long drive for some time visiting a friend three hours south.
Being back on Sunday.

Hope to come back with pics - maybe not, coz we will learn together for next exams.

Donnerstag, 19. Juni 2014


Somehow today I nearly fell down the stairs.

I got the "we do not want you" letter again for my last jobsearch - not so bad coz I want to stay where I am, but still...

Our waterkettle decided to get ill - not stopping to boil, ehhh.

Just the little normal shit that happens.

Hope you day was better.

Samstag, 14. Juni 2014


Today went better than I thought. O.k., I still do not love to be critizised by my parents, but I have learned to set them boundaries. Was not easy and will never be easy, but it was worth the effort until now.

Have read Rene Brown recently. Do you know her work?

Freitag, 13. Juni 2014

Dear Mum and Dad

You told me some months ago that you will come tomorrow for an overnight stay coz you are invited to a birthday in a restaurant nearby and Dad is to old to drive home late at night.

Dear Mum,
yes, I know Dad is old and it is very convenient to stay overnight here, but why did you not ask?

I would have loved to have to make a decision if it is possible or not.

I would have loved to say no for some reasons. You will not understand me I believe, but it is not easy for me to have you around. You are a big shame trigger for me. It took me nearly 40 years to overcome this picture of my worthlessness and that I am allowed to have opinions on my own (well, not when I ask you, I know).

You never take me serious - you alltimes tell me someone is worse of when I just want someone to share not so great things with. When I am not complaining you alltimes tell me who got a child, a better job and so on so. You are not interested in any effort I do - I am just lucky or could do better.
You very seldom forget to tell me I should loose some weight.

When you visit I try to have some time outside - it is much easier for me around you. I allready started to clean the flat today and it is really inconvenient for me to have you and Dad around.
I am not at ease during this time and I do not have much time for you - my next exams are waiting and I  need some time for myself, too.

Your visit is not something I am looking forward happily to.

Sorry, but it is this way.

Sonntag, 8. Juni 2014

Today - early morning

I went out to get some pics in my frontyard today.
And when I was there camera in my hand I saw an oldtimer coming and stopping.
A beautiful car.
I asked for pics and had a short chat with the driver.
A bit later I finally took the pics in my frontyard.
The wild geranium did come univited into my garden - it is a wild flower (pics 3 +6).
I like it coz it grows pretty - and you?

Freitag, 6. Juni 2014


I was supposed to learn together in the South from yesterday on until sunday.

Well, it was not to be.

Wednesday I did not feel well, on Thursday it got worse.
Today I still feel like shit. My whole body itches, my eyes do not look good.
And I allready have stayed at home taking medicine, ugh.

Sonntag, 1. Juni 2014

Today - my garden

Some flowers are allready in bloom others are still germinating.
I am happy to have a little garden.

Freitag, 30. Mai 2014

Time runs by and runs really fast

Wow, friday allready.

I got to see my papers from the last test on wednesday.
I allready found three points where I had the right answer and did not get a point.
One more and I can put down a quest about my results.
(I am still searching... perhaps....)

On the other side I have to start learning for the next written tests.
Next weekend I will be away for learning.

And work, normal life and so on goes on, too.

I guess I get to know why taking these exams is not fun at all, I am just happy that I have found nice gals to learn together with. :-)

I bought a lot of choc to get me through these days.
I love zotter.

What is your fav choc?

Sonntag, 25. Mai 2014

Why taking exams?

I do not know how it works where you life and work, but in my work there is a lot changing.
I got my bachelor degree about nearly twenty years ago - at a time where there where the first aviable pcs coming to our work places.

I took some pc classes later, but just one week courses and so (I was so lucky to have a bit of dos programming at school in the 90s so I was not afraid to use a pc).

Now we have a major shift at work again - I was one of the first to get all alone starting to translate it at my work place (putting new law into daily work). I took an exam to know what I do after a several weekend course. This led to me wanting to know more so I asked to get more training. Well, here in Germany everything needs an exam or test.

I am trying to get a paper. I allready finished three tests - failed one and have still more to come.

It is a bit hard to start a new job and be away for 1/4 of the time for learning and having to learn for exams, too.

But hey, why not trying?

Yesterday - Ruhr

Can you believe it? This little river gives the name to a big industrial area a bit more downstream - the "Ruhrgebiet".

I was yesterday near this river to get some more lectures for my next exams.

Donnerstag, 22. Mai 2014


Yesterday I was tending a bit to this patch of land. I hear a little noise to my left and was curious. I looked there - and was friendly greeted by our neighbour standing in his garden in plain bright white underwear.

Montag, 19. Mai 2014


Being late for the train home I ran until I still saw it on the tracks. I reached it, my breath going hard, the train still standing in the station, all doors closed. Trying to open one door I was surprised it still opened - I decided to get in although the train was starting to roll out of the station. I was a bit terrified, it was a fast train. Everything went well and I was early at home.

Sonntag, 18. Mai 2014


Morning light on my balcony.

Samstag, 17. Mai 2014

Last week in Berlin

Last week in Berlin was not the best of weeks I had.
I felt tired, not able to learn any more, detached from my inner self.

While the other went out to the musical after our course I stayed in the hotel and took a big bag of sleep.

I now got the numbers. Just 20 % made it in Hannover and nearly all of our course made it in Cologne.
There is not much you can do against it.
It still makes me angry.

Samstag, 10. Mai 2014

Do not play Big Zampano - you are just human

I finished one part of my exams, but missed another with 4 points missing to solved, ugghhh.

I am not happy - I can sit it again, but it is such a nuiseance.
I finished the one I learned not much for and missed the one I sat for 14 days learning.

Mittwoch, 7. Mai 2014


No, not just the fabric is called jersey - a little island in the channel is called Jersey, too.
I will go there in July. I hope to have a nice quiet artsy stay there.

Do you dream of holidays, too?

Donnerstag, 1. Mai 2014

Today - the first of May

The first of may - an official holiday in Germany.
Like usual we were invited for a walking tour in the woods with friends. I am not able to walk so far in such a short amount of time at the moment so I declined (well, it is raining and I have my menstruation, so it was no hard decision for me).

I am now home - doing some tasks here.
I started to finish my new pair of trousers and had to realize that the fabric meets in an odd way - well, it is in the back, but still...

What are you up to?

Samstag, 26. April 2014

Today - Oh my, is it allready May?

Found today - possible dead - on the sidewalk in Hannover.

Montag, 21. April 2014


on my balcony today after a shower