Sonntag, 26. Juni 2016


A hurray to internet shopping.

I just ordered some more hoyas for my home. I have a nice spot that can do with some more plants. I ordered mine at kakteen haage in Erfurt - they send plants and not just brances, a bit more pricey, but it is woth it.

And I ordered some pottery for work. A big mug for my tea (0,5 liter go inside :-)) and a bowel for my muesli.

Now I just have to wait for the parcels to arrive.

Hey, have I told you I started to do pottery? I found a workplace just some streets away and the people are really nice. Have to get used to do it - last time I did it I was in middle school. I started to do some small things last week, mostly buttons.

Samstag, 25. Juni 2016


Got so wet today. Heavy rain.

Dienstag, 21. Juni 2016


Being late my car was today my choose of transportation. Well, it did not work today. No chance for me to get it started. I called work for a day off, uggghhh. One more day of my holidays for such crap.

I still have a lot of pain. Not unbearable, but still ... I called my geral doc today and was told the next free late date in the timeline would be August. I am feeling a bit crazy not being in so big pain I have to go to the hospital asap, but enough pain to be unpleasant. A pain you can not grasp like a broken arm or a swollen ankle. I have pain in different parts of my body at different times - changing in a pattern I do not know yet. Am I imagining my pain or is it real? Why I am in pain?

Enough of being sorry for myself - something good comes out of it for sure or so I hope.

Samstag, 11. Juni 2016

What the ... ?

I cursed a lot these days.

On Tuesday I got big pain getting on the first step of the local streetcar - so much pain I thought I would not get in it. Well, somehow I managed it, but the pain stayed - not going down much.

On Wednesday I went to my general doc and he told me to take some days big painkiller and stay at home for three days. The painkiller were really huge, but my pain, too. Usual I have problems getting such big pills in, but not this time. After two days on painkiller and still with heavy pain I visited my orthopädic doc yesterday.

Seems I have a rare condition- morbus boeck or morbus ledderhose. Means I have small knots in my feet that cause these problems. The are in most cases begnin, but the only really option to get the pain under controll is radiation therapy, uppsss.Nothing I will consider lighthearted - it can  give you a bigger chance of cancer and I am scared of that bit.So I will have to live with this pain for some more time, trying to get weight off and hoping to get away without radiation.

My mood was not the best these last months - the pain started in November last year and got to a climax now.

What helps a bit is when I tray to concentrate on creating.

Mittwoch, 1. Juni 2016


I loved the clouds, the light and the sun I saw yesterday on my trainride home.

Today I took the car and the weather was really ugly sometimes. I had some big rain splashes today - so big I could not see much outside and the streets were in part rivers.